The wall

Have you ever encountered an obstacle that seemed unsurmountable?  Its called “hitting the wall.”  What’s been your wall? 

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“Walk the wall!” A scene from “An Officer and a Gentleman”

Statistics was the wall I came up against, a paper I had to pass to qualify for a Diploma of Business.  We had four weeks to complete it.  I just couldn’t do it, I hadn’t been able to understand maths since the age of ten.  When I prayed about it, I knew I had to “throw my heart over the bar”.

Years before, I had won a major spiritual battle against bad thoughts.  After I’d got rid of the worry and hate, God wanted me to fill my mind with positive thoughts, so I read a book my Norman Vincent Peale, “The power of positive thinking.”

One of the things Norman Vincent Peale said was this;

Throw your heart over the bar and your body will follow.  Throw your faith over your difficulty, throw your affirmation over every barrier, throw your visualisation over your obstacles.  Fire the heart with where you want to go and what you want to be.  Get it so deeply fixed in your unconscious that you will not take no for an answer, then your entire personality will follow where your heart leads.”     

It reminds me of a scene from the movie “An Officer and a Gentleman” that came out in 1982 with the hit song “Up where we belong.”  Anyway, the scene I am talking about is where the only female cadet on the course has a wall she has to scale.  The hero wouldn’t let her give up.  He coached her over the wall; “Walk the wall! Seeger! Seeger, walk! Seeger! Don’t you let go! You walk that wall! Pull! Pull! Pull, Candidate Seeger!”  

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Have you ever hit the wall?  If you can’t seem to get over, consult God before you give up.  He will know whether you can do it or not.  He and my husband helped me scale the wall, just like the hero in the movie.

Did I pass Statistics at College?  I did, I never used it in my business – but I have used Statistics in a major revelation about the 153 fish.

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Fight or flight

fight-or-flight-cartoonIn the Kingdom, we are commanded to stand and fight, with all the armour that God gives us.

Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power.  Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes.  For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.  Ephesians 6:10

 

But there is a situation where we are not to stand our ground.

When it comes to sexual temptation, we have to run!

Flee from sexual immorality. Every other sin a person commits is outside the body, but the sexually immoral person sins against his own body. 1 Corinthians 6:8

If you remember the story of Joseph and Potiphar’s wife, Joseph ran for it.

She caught him by his cloak and said, “Come to bed with me! ” But he left his cloak in her hand and ran out of the house.  Genesis 39:12

Its like the Gambler song;

You got to know when to hold ’em, know when to fold ’em,
Know when to walk away, know when to run.

My book deals with temptation in different places.  Did I run?  You’ll have to read the book to find out.

No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted,he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.  1 Corinthians 10:13

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Do you want it more than you are afraid of it?

I’d been working ever since I was seventeen and decided on a change of career after my children were born.  I spent their early years studying part time for a career in IT, while working part time as a teller at a Credit Union and part time as a Science Technician at a College . 

I was a part time this and a part time that, and a full-time Mum.  In the year after I qualified, a job came up for a Systems Engineer.  After two interviews I found I also had to sit an IQ test.

I nearly talked myself out of the job there and then.  I’d sat a similar test at the same place, the only programming shop in town, 15 years before and failed.  I didn’t want to go there again, but the Lord reminded me of what I had read in a book called ‘The Power of Positive Thinking’ by Norman Vincent Peale.

“Whatever you’re doing, give it all you’ve got.  Give every bit of yourself.  Hold nothing back.  Life cannot deny itself to the person who gives life his all.  Throw your heart over your difficulty, throw your affirmation over every barrier, throw your visualization over your obstacles.  Throw your heart over the bar and your body will follow.

I’d never get another opportunity like it, so I ran at it with all my might.  This time I passed the test ahead of all the other applicants and won the job.

That was the first hurdle over.  I overcame my fear of failure.

My advice for the first hurdle is don’t let life say no to you.  Have another go.

In order to succeed, your desire for success should be greater than your fear of failure,  – Bill Cosby.

The next hurdle was starting the job and finding I’d been given the workplace bully as a mentor.  I wish I could say I sailed over that hurdle too, and put her in her place.  I didn’t.  I didn’t confront her because abuse was familiar to me, and I needed whatever scraps of knowledge she would grudgingly give.  I did not overcome my fear of man (Chapter 30 starts this part of the story).

We ran into each other recently, which was quite a surprise as we live in different cities and haven’t seen each other in years.  I’ve moved on.  With God’s help and a big push from Him, I gained a Diploma of Business, and now have my own business which has been running for seven years.

Still weighing and assessing me, she could see I am happy, secure and confident.  She’s still in the same big company, worried about redundancy and her mortgage, and can’t imagine working for herself.  I’d say I’ve got a lot further in life without scorning people or throwing them under the bus at work.

God opposes the proud, but gives grace to the humble.  Proverbs 3:34

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So for the second hurdle – workplace bullying, keep calm, and believe in yourself.  Its not about you, the bully is the one who is insecure.  Nothing they say about you is true.  If you’re stuck with the bully, stand your ground and confront them.  If you can.  If you can’t, learn how to assert yourself or leave them behind, because they’re never going to stop.  Is your desire for success greater than your fear?

Decide that you want it more than you are afraid of it. – Bill Cosby.

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Rebuilding with the bricks others have thrown

Successful womanThe King had given me a word to “rebuild the temple”.  He meant “rebuild my life”.

For we are the temple of the living God.  As God has said; “I will live with them and walk among them, and I will be their God, and they will be my people.” 2 Corinthians 6:16

It was difficult rebuilding my life after a divorce and abusive relationship with a narcissist.  Where did I start?  Life had to go on even though I was one of the walking wounded.   I had to come to terms with myself and try and figure out what the hell had happened.  I felt like I’d had bricks thrown at me, and all I had to rebuild my life with was rubble and other people’s rubbish.

It happened because I’d lived life on other people’s terms, seeking my worth in their eyes.  Narcissists love to exploit people like that.

I lacked rule over my own spirit.

“He that has no rule over his own spirit is like a city that is broken down, and without walls” Proverbs 25:28

At this stage of the journey, I needed boundaries.  I didn’t even know what the word meant.

What did I have to rebuild with?  Rubble, lots of it.  I got started with the bricks.  I have learned since then that with God, no experience is wasted.

‘Stones,’ a chapter in my book deals with the vision I got from Nehemiah.  He’s a guy who in the Bible who built a wall around a shattered Kingdom.

Never give up

A friend of mine said “No one gets out of life unscathed.”  Isn’t that the truth!  My book touches on suffering in different chapters, and what I’d learned from those who’d gone before me.  I have learned the most from people who have lost the most.  They suffered.   They have overcome giants.

Why does an all powerful, all loving God, permit suffering?  Its a question we all ask, because we all hurt.  Its a question we can ask God.  He may not give a reason, but He will give comfort.

What I have learned from my walk with the King is that he does not dismiss or diminish suffering, even though the reasons for it are not offered.  He will bring meaning out of it, if we trust Him, if we permit Him.  He will use suffering to fashion something above human reason that is of immense value, something that has dignity, beauty, and honour.

The King did not get out of life unscathed either.  He has the scars to prove it.  He, the Great I AM, got down into this suffering world with us.  What my Grandfather got told, when he most needed to hear it, was “Christ suffered too”.

What I needed to learn, was never give up.

Do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded.  You need to persevere. Hebrews 10:35

The King even tells what the reward is; “Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.” James 1:12

Keep the faith.