A Braided rope

Recently I earned my first commission payment for my second book. It was a small beginning but I was delighted. It was in the same week I received the shocking news I had breast cancer. As if 2020 wasn’t challenging enough.

The hospital didn’t muck around after my diagnosis. I’ve had my operation and now I’m waiting to hear how much chemo I’ll need.

Despite it all, I’m in good spirits. I’m healing well, and I’m not in any pain, thanks to the skills of the surgeon and medical staff, and all the prayer that has gone on on my behalf.

There’s a proverb that states a person’s spirit will sustain them in sickness. Proverbs 18:14. It’s a broken spirit that can’t be borne.

2020 has left me feeling a bit frayed.

I remember the saying, “when you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on to it.”

The Hebrew word for ‘wait’ is ‘qavah,’ which means ‘to bind together by twisting.‘ It means entwining our spirits with God’s so two separate entities become one – we in the Father and the Father in us. If we abide in Him and He abides in us, then the Word says we may ask what we will. John 15:7

It’s during this plaiting of our spirits that the exchange takes place. And the advantage of a braided rope is strength.

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I probably look idle right now, but I’m looking up and gathering strength.  I will rise up on eagle’s wings. I’m not going to be a sick person, I’m going to be a full-time writer.

Come fly with me.

“But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31

Testing times

In my last posts I talked about how I don’t like waiting.  I also don’t like being tested.  My mentor told me that the Lord is more interested in our character than our comfort.

Job is a man from the oldest book in the Bible who underwent severe trials.  His wife wanted him to curse God and die, but he wouldn’t.  He said “But he knows the way that I take; when he has tested me, I will come forth as gold.” Job 23:10

Footsteps

What in the Kingdom is of greater worth than gold?  Faith.

For now you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.” 1 Peter 1:6-7

In the third year of my journey with the King I chose a hard yet interesting path, where everything the Lord gave me would be tested.

Rebuilding my life, I dug deep and laid a new foundation with the words

“Justice will be the measuring line for the foundation, And honesty will be its plumb line.”  Isaiah 28:16

No sooner had I laid that foundation than it was tested.  My book tells the story.

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The waiting room

wait my childIf God had a waiting room, what would it look like?  Would we sit there patiently, waiting for the door to open?

Would doubt whisper “did God really say that?”  or ask “what if it never happens?”  

Waiting demands perseverance.  Do we trust God when He is more interested in our character than our comfort?

It is written that perseverance produces character, and character, hope.  (Romans 5:3)

Hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have?  But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.”  Romans 8:24

Would we wait patiently like this guy from the NZ mainland cheese ad?

Or would we act like Beetlejuice?

Impatience in God’s waiting room

Romans 8-25Waiting …

Who likes waiting?

After the Lord had promised me a happy marriage some time in the future, He wanted me to wait.  The trouble was, I had trust issues.  I asked myself, why should He do that for me?  Still worldly and immature in my faith, I struggled with unbelief.

I’d want to go off and do things my way – with predictable results.

I believe how we wait depends on trust.  If we are religious we’ll obey to be accepted, not religious we’ll live as we please, and if we believe the Gospel truth about the Lord and His Kingdom we’ll be happy to be obedient.

At times, I lived as I pleased.   The Lord had to get me to a place where I knew I was accepted by Him and be secure enough to obey Him.

3waystoliveIn the next chapter, instead of trusting the Lord and staying by myself, I headed off into yet another relationship.  Fortunately, this relationship didn’t do me any harm, but I did invest a lot of emotional energy into something that wasn’t going to last.  Worse, I was not a good example as a follower of Jesus.  Would I do it again knowing what I know now? No.  I have learned its better to wait.  Just hang in there, and wait!  There is a promise that hangs in God’s waiting room;

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Those who wait upon the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.  Isaiah 40:31    

Alone, but not lonely

keep-calm-and-enjoy-your-singleness“Single,” the solitary skier called out at the T-Bar on a ski field in the Snowy Mountains, indicating that another skier was needed on the two-person tow.  That’s the one bar where it’s appropriate to call that out!

Being single can be a risky business, and I haven’t met many people who enjoy it.    

The solitary path is one not many people choose of their own free will.  I was a single woman for ten years, and to start with I didn’t like it until I found there are places on the path to the Kingdom that are just for singles. 

I had an encounter with the King in just such a place.  At first, I caught a glimpse of a man with white hair wearing blue jeans and a white shirt.  I thought it must have been Jesus because He appears in the Revelation, the last book of the Bible, with white hair. 

However, when I got to that place on the “Solitary Path” I realised the Lord had allowed me a glimpse of my future husband, the man I’d been promised. 

This was at the start of the solitary path, and he was years away.  I had a lot to learn before the Lord was going to trust me with him.  The biggest thing I discovered was this; the Lord wants us to learn to love Him first.

Most of the time I find my way into the Kingdom through meditating on the great words of the Bible, but on this day it was through a song. 

“Listen to this”, my friend named “White Flower” in the Kingdom story said as she played a track from her Clay Pots CD, “Love Song for a Saviour.”  I liked the lyrics, they confirmed what I had seen when I went into the Kingdom the day before. 

So the next chapter of The Kingdom was inspired by the song.  It goes like this:

Jars of Clay, Love Song for a Saviour

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In open fields of wild flowers,
she breathes the air and flies away
She thanks her Jesus for the daises and the roses
in no simple language
Someday she’ll understand the meaning of it all

He’s more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on her lips
Someday she’ll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He’ll call her and she will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and she’ll pray,

“I want to fall in love with You”

Sitting silent wearing Sunday best
The sermon echoes through the walls
A great salvation through it calls to the people
who stare into nowhere, and can’t feel the chains on their souls

He’s more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on our lips
Someday we’ll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He’ll call us and we will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and we’ll pray,

“I want to fall in love with You”

It seems too easy to call you “Savior”,
Not close enough to call you “God”
So as I sit and think of words I can mention
to show my devotion

“I want to fall in love with You”