Full Circle

Full circleThe Kingdom story has chronicled my wanderings through a hidden world , where I received guidance from a King, whose name is Jesus – the one who calls Himself “The Way, The Truth, and the Life”.   At the beginning of the journey I felt lost and was afraid that this was all wishful thinking.  I wanted to believe so badly that He was guiding me. 

At the beginning of my story I wanted to know where in the world I was supposed to be.  Neil Diamond’s song “I am I said” resonated with me.  I felt lost between two shores, and kept thinking about making my way back to the place where I had been happy.  The song lamented “And I am lost, and I can’t even say why.”

The Lord told me to setup signs and mark the road because He was going to show me where I was supposed to be.  He said it would involve going full circle, it would involve a man, and from that He would create a new thing.  The story is recorded here in this chapter; The Kingdom – Signs.

“Set up road signs;
put up guideposts.
Take note of the highway,
the road that you take.
Return, O Virgin Israel,
return to the town you left.
How long will you wander,
faithless daughter?
The LORD will create a new thing on earth—
a woman will encircle a man.”  Jeremiah 31:21-22

It was hard for me to believe, and I wasn’t an easy person to lead.  It was true when the Lord said “How long will you wander, faithless daughter?”  But He kept me to the road from the signs and guideposts I observed and marked in the story, in obedience to His instructions.

If you have stuck with me this far, thank you so much.  I am honoured to have your company.   Now we are getting to the incredible part.  Seven years later I went full circle, and another character comes into the story.

The scene is “in the town I left”.

The circle started five years before at a place I called “the Tower”, recorded here:  Chapter 16 The Place of the Tower.

The circle ends here: Chapter 54 Full circle.


Trouble.  This world guarantees it.
Job, a just man who was severely tested, wrote
Man is born for trouble, as surely as sparks fly upwards.”  Job 5:7

Trouble can be caused by bad people.  The book of Proverbs from the Bible, says;

Do not set foot on the path of the wicked
or walk in the way of evildoers.
 Avoid it, do not travel on it;
turn from it and go on your way.
 For they cannot rest until they do evil;
they are robbed of sleep till they make someone stumble.
 They eat the bread of wickedness
and drink the wine of violence.  Proverbs 4:14

Taylor Swift - Trouble

Trouble, the funny version

Taylor Swift sings about it here in her song “Trouble”.   Here’s a 25 sec clip, which my daughter showed to me.  It’s the funny version.

I have warned about bad people in a post called
“Here be Dragons”.

But what if we can’t avoid them, like at work?  Jesus understands trouble.  He was born for it.

He promised “In the world you will have trouble. But take heart; I have overcome the world.”  Sometimes He’ll take us through it – to test us, or teach us.  And sometimes He’ll take us around it.

My advice; fear God more than man.  By fear I mean “have concern for”.

I sought the Lord, and he answered me;
    he delivered me from all my fears.

Taste and see that the LORD is good;
blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.
Fear the LORD, you his saints,
for those who fear him lack nothing.  Psalm 34:4-8

This is true, I sought the Lord, and He answered me.  He led me through a bad place, promising it would be a door of hope.  The story is told in my book where I travelled through the Valley of Achor.  Achor means trouble.  Its a place that people on pilgrimage had to go through to get to Zion.  You don’t have to travel it alone.

Hosea 2-14

The second wish

Once upon a time there was a Princess, who had made two wishes without consulting her Father, the King. 

Her life in tatters after leaving the narcissist, the Princess made of the King her first request;

Please bring me a man who is the exact opposite of Silver-tongue, the narcissist.

The King decided to grant her request because she needed to learn.  She should have asked for wisdom.

The next man, a double minded man, was the complete opposite but just as perverse.

The foolish princess still hadn’t learned and asked the King to bring her someone else.

It was another soulish prayer; “Please bring me someone who sees me for who I really am, and desires me.

“Be careful of what you ask,” the King replied, wanted the Princess to see herself through His eyes.

Granting the Princess her wish, he summoned Ishmael, a foreigner from a far off land, a man of a different kingdom and faith.

It was a test.  Would she stand for the King, or fall for Ishmael?

Ishmael loved and desired the Princess, and he did restore her self esteem.  But Ishmael could never be hers.

“Why did you bring me Ishmael?”  the Princess exclaimed, knowing this was not the King’s will.

“You asked for him”  the King replied.

She should have sought the will of the King.

This was not a fairy tale.

The story of the first and second wish are in my book.

Here is wisdom, when we ask God for something, we need to ask according to His will.

And this is the confidence that we have toward him, that if we ask anything according to his will he hears us. 1 John 5:14

Ask according to God's will

Fight or flight

fight-or-flight-cartoonIn the Kingdom, we are commanded to stand and fight, with all the armour that God gives us.

Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power.  Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes.  For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.  Ephesians 6:10


But there is a situation where we are not to stand our ground.

When it comes to sexual temptation, we have to run!

Flee from sexual immorality. Every other sin a person commits is outside the body, but the sexually immoral person sins against his own body. 1 Corinthians 6:8

If you remember the story of Joseph and Potiphar’s wife, Joseph ran for it.

She caught him by his cloak and said, “Come to bed with me! ” But he left his cloak in her hand and ran out of the house.  Genesis 39:12

Its like the Gambler song;

You got to know when to hold ’em, know when to fold ’em,
Know when to walk away, know when to run.

My book deals with temptation in different places.  Did I run?  You’ll have to read the book to find out.

No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted,he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.  1 Corinthians 10:13


Alone, but not lonely

keep-calm-and-enjoy-your-singleness“Single,” the solitary skier called out at the T-Bar on a ski field in the Snowy Mountains, indicating that another skier was needed on the two-person tow.  That’s the one bar where it’s appropriate to call that out!

Being single can be a risky business, and I haven’t met many people who enjoy it.    

The solitary path is one not many people choose of their own free will.  I was a single woman for ten years, and to start with I didn’t like it until I found there are places on the path to the Kingdom that are just for singles. 

I had an encounter with the King in just such a place.  At first, I caught a glimpse of a man with white hair wearing blue jeans and a white shirt.  I thought it must have been Jesus because He appears in the Revelation, the last book of the Bible, with white hair. 

However, when I got to that place on the “Solitary Path” I realised the Lord had allowed me a glimpse of my future husband, the man I’d been promised. 

This was at the start of the solitary path, and he was years away.  I had a lot to learn before the Lord was going to trust me with him.  The biggest thing I discovered was this; the Lord wants us to learn to love Him first.

Most of the time I find my way into the Kingdom through meditating on the great words of the Bible, but on this day it was through a song. 

“Listen to this”, my friend named “White Flower” in the Kingdom story said as she played a track from her Clay Pots CD, “Love Song for a Saviour.”  I liked the lyrics, they confirmed what I had seen when I went into the Kingdom the day before. 

So the next chapter of The Kingdom was inspired by the song.  It goes like this:

Jars of Clay, Love Song for a Saviour

Click here for: Jars of Clay, Love Song for a Saviour

In open fields of wild flowers,
she breathes the air and flies away
She thanks her Jesus for the daises and the roses
in no simple language
Someday she’ll understand the meaning of it all

He’s more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on her lips
Someday she’ll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He’ll call her and she will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and she’ll pray,

“I want to fall in love with You”

Sitting silent wearing Sunday best
The sermon echoes through the walls
A great salvation through it calls to the people
who stare into nowhere, and can’t feel the chains on their souls

He’s more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on our lips
Someday we’ll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He’ll call us and we will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and we’ll pray,

“I want to fall in love with You”

It seems too easy to call you “Savior”,
Not close enough to call you “God”
So as I sit and think of words I can mention
to show my devotion

“I want to fall in love with You”

The second wish

In a previous post where I met a character I dubbed “the Minstrel”, I told a story about wishes.  The story goes like this;

There was once a princess who got rid of a controlling man, and foolishly asked the King for the next man to be the complete opposite.

“Please bring me a man who is the exact opposite of Silver-tongue” she prayed.    Even though she had gone to the King with her wish, she asked the for the wrong thing.  All a man’s ways seem innocent to him, but motives are weighed by the LORD.  Proverbs 16:2.

The King decided to grant her request because He wanted her to learn.  She should have asked for wisdom.

Wisdom will save you from the ways of wicked men,The Lord ponders the heart
    from men whose words are perverse,
who have left the straight paths
    to walk in dark ways,
who delight in doing wrong
    and rejoice in the perverseness of evil,
whose paths are crooked
    and who are devious in their ways.  Proverbs 2:12-15

The next man, a friend she dubbed “the Minstrel”, was the complete opposite, but his words were just as perverse, and he goaded her with snide little put downs.

The foolish princess still hadn’t learned and asked the King to bring her someone else.

“Please bring me someone who sees me for who I really am, and desires me” she asked.

The King, who wanted the Princess to see herself through His eyes, replied “Be careful of what you ask.”

Be careful for what you ask.

A vision, and the promise

Every promise

When I was still in an abusive relationship, the Lord told me that I would be married again and He would choose my future husband.  I wondered whether it was just me reading Isaiah 62 and indulging in too much wishful thinking.  It seemed a very Eastern concept, but I went with it because I would never have dreamed that up, and it gave me hope for the vacuum I would soon find myself in after leaving my abuser.

Months later, I had a conversation with the Lord about it while in a quiet moment writing my Kingdom story.  I had been reading my Bible and praying for guidance.

The King asked me to list the attributes of the husband he was choosing for me.  I was in the Kingdom at the time and thought I was just writing a story.  So I wrote stuff about a prince who had slayed dragons, could make me laugh, and was good with my children.  I left it to one paragraph.

If you are a believer, and the King gets you involved in a choice He is making – then be specific, be really, really specific, because I can tell you now that He is a God who keeps his promises.  If you get an opportunity like that, cross every t and dot every i!

You may have to wait a while for the promise to be realised because God’s timing is not our timing.  For Him, a thousand years is as a day.  So if He says “wait a minute”, it’s hardly reassuring, but be patient and endure temptation.  God blesses those who patiently endure testing and temptation. Afterward they will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.  James 1:12

I met the man who was to become my husband shortly after this chapter but had to wait seven years before we were brought together.  He had been very specific about what He wanted in a wife.  The wishes that He gave to the Lord covered both sides of a foolscap page of paper.

I matched everything except height.  He wanted a woman who was the same height, and I wanted to fit under his chin, although I hadn’t written that down.  So I told him I should have won on that point, because he got two pages while I only got one paragraph.  I’m happy about the Lord’s choice and it really doesn’t matter about what I didn’t get to write.  He matched on everything I did write.

My only grumble would be in the romance department.  On Feb 14th I jokingly said “Its Valentine’s day, what will I be getting?”  We celebrate our anniversary a week later so it’s no big deal.  He’s got a goofy American guy who has been in NZ since he was thirteen, and his reply was “my dinner”.  Yes, he makes me laugh.